Wow, it seems so weird how no matter what happens, most things come full circle.  It started with me hating my job.  Me working 12+ hours a day.  being so tired and exhausted I can barely function.  My personal life started to suffer.  My husband got insecure.  We fought, he cheated, he lied, I found out.  Now, I have to figure out where to go and what to do.  He seems to think we can work it out.  he seems sincere.  But I am not sure I am.  I don't trust him.  I don't know that I ever will.  He was so resistant to working on it when I had time.  When I had finally changed jobs, had time to do things.  Now, he lost his job.  I am back at a job I hate.  Working most of the time.  Hating every minute of it.  Not wanting to do anything but sleep.

I don't feel like doing anything.  He is unemployed and has all day to be bored.  I get home, want to rest and all he wants to do is go.  I just want to be by myself for a while.  Is that wrong?

But I guess there is one bright point.  I have someone else I hate and that takes up much of my hostility and gives me a way to get it out with no one being any the wiser. 

I hate my boss...

Now, really I have two bosses.  My "real" boss whom I really like and respect.  Then my "dotted line" boss, who is a racist, chauvinistic jerk who only gets pleasure from degrading people publicly.

I guess I have new material for a while.

more to come later.